the general rule
Monday, February 20, 2006
ok as a general rule..
we of the gay community should NEVER
fall or be attracted to someone who is straight..
bi ppl are ok..
but straight ppl..BIG no no..
thru experience..
falling for a straight person
can only lead you to downward spiral of meaningless hope,
desperation, illusions, incurable heartache and even worse..
death..
it is the worse form of unrequited love.
for you know you have no control whatsoever
and u are enslaved to this one person
completely..wholly
and u cannot detach yourself..
and the person will never attach to you..and so..
you float like a corpse in water..
waiting to sink deeper and deeper.
and your mind, your body, craves to be touched
to be held..
but you can never..
they would never..
so u pray..
and u hope.
but u know it will never come true
but yet you pray and you hope
and hope and hope
that one day they would have an
aberration..
but they never will..
and you will always remain alone.
enslaved to that person, mind body and soul..
even till many years later when u think back
you feel a sense of loss..
a sense of loss of dignity
a sense of loss of your bearings.
and when u see their face..
you wonder..
if only..
if only you had remembered the rules..i watched the ep 6 of the L word..
amazing stuff..
so it made me realise so many gay womaen fall for straight ppl
its that notion that you can never have them..
it makes them all the more desirable..
in the case of bette and tina..
bette did manage to turn tina..
but now tina is unsure..unsure whether she has feelings for men..
and to quote tina " it almost never goes the way you want it to"
and its true..
and it sucks.
even if you had wanted nothing..
so if u ever fall for a straight person..
let go..
just let it go..
get over it and move on..
before the worse happens..
haiz.
my mind works on overdrive at night.
wish i cld put it to some good use..
instead.
--insignificant lies--
2:15 am
